I feel like because every guy I have been with left me kinda being blindsided I feel like I'm never good enough or worth keeping. I'm talking to this boy now but I just feel like I'm so scared to love and give myself to him because I fear of hurting my heart. It sucks that I hold myself down from my past but I honestly cant go through the heartache anymore and I feel like love isn't worth it. I feel so messed up but I just wish I could love like I use to without over thinking and fearing pain :(
But you are good enough and worth keeping! I’ve was dumped twice when all I did was love as much as I could. But I know who I am, and that I didn’t deserve that. You don’t deserve that either. You will find someone (I know that sounds cliche), but it is true. Who knows you may run into them tomorrow?
I as well focus so much on my past. I am scared of relationships because I’ve been crushed to oblivion when they disappear. You’re right sometimes it doesn’t feel like the love you have for a time is worth it. But you got to keep going <3 Think about the stories you can tell in your old age, people will look to you and see you were strong and that even though you had been hurt allot you still took a risk and fell.
When you start to over think and think the same things over and over. Write them all down and once you get them out remind yourself you’ve already thought those things and it is time to move on. Thank you for your story <3 Good luck xx
